“Waiting”

waiting

 

And there are so many things
I really should do
but to sit here
in this dark room
and write
but—
i won’t.

I don’t want to let this moment pass, to go
away
without letting it out,
spilling it on the page

and I’ll sit here
trying to be calm
but inside
my guts are twisting up

I want to leave and drive and
I have to wait here
tormented

I hear the bell outside
and awakened I am there
looking out the half-covered window
to stop
and listen

waiting, waiting, waiting
I hate to be idle—
one hour more and escape is near

 

 

 

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“Spoken for”

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I am the property
of the November wind
Arctic ice
the cooling creek
a moonlit mountainside
a fireside chat
in all of that,
I am made whole
the waters rush in to
invigorate my soul
the cascading hills
roll the tension out
beams of golden sun
bake in the joy
i am spoken for….

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Petal-covered Pout

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Skin left bitten by the boisterous, blustery day
her pretty cheeks pricked and left delicately raw,
the phantom wind left crimson upon her cheeks and lips

warmth crept in, set in
upon entering the sanctuary of her favorite spot
swirling the long robe up and out into the expanse of space within

she placed herself inside its embrace
slipped down into the hug of her most beloved chair
curled up, like a spotted cat, and wrote

with pen pressed to her petal-covered pout,
she lost herself in the tease of his smile
how long she had yearned to touch her lips to his
the waiting, the wonder, and now

only writing, only lines on the page
through the ink dotted on each piece,
she could put herself there with him

and for now,
this would suffice
to be enough

“Parts”

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All of these parts
I have inside
Some exposed
Others I hide

But all, it seems, are quite distressed
A wash of death,
A hectic mess

Haphazardly strewn, they are, at best
inside a body
without rest

a mind of swirls
clouds of mope
devils, danger,
fear, cut-throat

Amidst it all, a smile facade
no brick, no stone
but merely straw

loveless it seems,
weak at best
desperate to die,
a waking crest

simile. metaphor.
what all may be
a treasure trove
catastrophe.

 

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“Rumpus of Love”

couple-1329349_1920peer in,
peer out,
what is there?

is it you? tell me where;

sit and stay—
stay awhile.
tell me stories;
walk the mile

your eyes are warm—
they draw me near
hold me close;
be mine, sweet dear—

cotton candy clouds above
wispy, dreamy,
they’re in love

just those two,
right in our grasp
their love, like ours,
will never lapse!

oh, dreamboat!
you speed my heart;
it’s full of joy,
not torn apart

stitch by stitch,
you’ve sewn it new,
whole inside
without pure rue—

fancy, fancy
your eyes meet mine;
our souls forever
intertwine

and so it is
you now with me
our spirits reckless,
raging seas

a wave, a toss,
sweet love, we dance;
the perfect moon,
entrancing glance

i love you so!
you love me back
joyous romp
sweet attack!

buzz buzz by, firefly
your love for me
won’t be denied

and now, the night
is fully drawn;
hold me near
until the dawn.

“The One You Chose”

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And so you’ll choose her,
the one
who will
chew you up
and
spit you out,
her mouth foaming
her heart, an empty vase, flowers wilting within—
just a momentary beat with
no true sentiment
a clock without gears
just tick tick tick…

there will be no pause,
no remorse for your soul—
for you, never love,
you’re nothing but her toy
a simple trinket with which to play;
when boredom grasps her,
away you’ll be tossed

and you’ll think of me then
the one who would have loved you
exactly as you ought to be—
exactly the way you never
dreamed you deserved
you will see my face each night
inside your mind, oh the torment
for not having tried
and you will
wonder what could have been
how the world would have been
brighter,
more whole,
less of the lesser—inside you

and yet—
my never-to-be love,
I am not the one you chose

 

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Driven Cold

8260597495_20fcba55ef_oI much prefer winter
She smiled
Actually fall. Fall is best.
The colors, the textures, the cocoa,
Leaves are turned
every beautiful variation of orange,
green, and red.
The crunching of them
below my feet
offers that one moment of
POWER
I’m still driven—
fear of failure
is haunting
I need to get out
far away
wonder what that guy would do?
with the beard and his super eh…
hipster ways
I drove around that block umpteen times;
he sat calmly licking the rim

“Absorbing You”

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I want you to come back
I want you here
How I wish I would have
Spent more time
Spent more of my energy
absorbing you
Your kind heart
That hospital
All those times
The fear, knowing you were there
How I wish you were here
Your smile
That one missing tooth
creating the funny gap
So endearing
Just you, Grannie
Your heart is my heart
You live on inside of me
Every day
I want you here
I know you can’t be
I know you had to go
I know—

Still.
I miss you.
I love you.

“Break Through”

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In the midst of my ache,
my hurt,
my fear,
I watched as many
ran for help—
watched all the souls
hurting too
we were the same;
sometimes
I allow myself
to wallow,
feel sorry for myself,
forget that so many others
have far fewer blessings, and
far more burdens
While I cannot always control my feelings,
I can choose my actions;
I can spend more time
helping those around me;
I can spend more time
focusing on the wonder of life
Many times I have realized
life is all about moments—
Some are exceptional;
they steal our breath away
and we pray they will never end;
sometimes we take a photograph
capturing that perfect moment,
as if to hold on to it forever
Others we pray we make it through;
we literally tell ourselves, “this is a moment;
I just need to get to the next one, and maybe
the pain won’t feast on me in that moment
Maybe my worries will be less,
or my desperation will weaken its grip;
maybe in that next moment,
I will find strength,”
and then, that moment moves by
just like the breeze
never seen, but felt—
the moment moves effortlessly to the next;
you feel it, and all at once,
you find a way to
break through…

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“Let it Go”

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I wish I knew the way
to just let it all go—
Relax.
Believe.
Trust.
Scattered in my brain
Ache in my heart
Help me to be more like You.
Remind me that I have Your Mind
and Your Spirit
Walk with me Lord
Oh, how tired I am
I need You so
I know that You love me,
but I feel like I am failing
I am so scared
Please draw near to me

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